Saturday, September 29, 2007
What will let me reach your heart?I know I should let go of the distance between us, but, even just a little bit, is it possible for me to change it? One thing is certain, even now, I love you. No matter how I try to let go, this feeling won't change. You're the one I love most in the world.
I once died... I had an ice for a heart, and then she came and brought warmth to my world. And as the ice started to melt throughout my veins...
10:26 AM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
ELLIOTT YAMIN -Wait For You
[Verse 1]
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
[Bridge]
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.
9:07 AM
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
It was said that if you take your own life you are certain to fall into the pits of Hell. Forgive me for I am to waste the life that was given to me. I am weak. A coward.I can no longer continue with life.
Death is not a sweet thing; its just a fleeting pain.
I love you. Always.
8:34 AM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
This is like every other story starting when a boy meets a girl.
It all started like every other day. He wakes up, takes a shower and plugs himself to the cyber world oblivious of the changes that is about to take place in his life.
After grinding for hours, he decides to stop and walk around the dungeons preying on lower level players.(he's actually playing a game) This is when he came across a girl and for some reason, all hell broke out. They started quarreling about every little difference they have. One self-conceited, the other proud, both ego-maniacs. If you ask me, their pretty much alike.
Anyway, this odd couple started to develop a mutual relationship; one party tries to track down the other party while the other tries to find out if the other party is actually trying to search for him. It was a game of cat and mouse and it went on for days. It only came to an end when boy finally told girl that he's interested in her.
More than a month has passed when the two started as friends and they've decided to finally meet up for the first time.(unaware of the boy's true intention; to use her like how he used others) Girl, like most of them, is uncertain whether or not to meet boy. Boy then gave girl an ultimatum; meet him now or forget meeting him at all. Due to the pressure, girl eventually decided to meet boy. Unforeseen by the boy, upon gazing at her something in him felt different, he actually wanted to treasure someone and he is standing in front of this very person.
Time went by fast, too fast for the boy to admit to the girl the lies he have said. He was afraid to lose everything that they had. Too afraid to tell her the truth; kept on living the life made of lies.
One day, boy undergone an operation to fix his broken arm which he broke while fighting against a thug. There was no one who could check the boy out of the hospital the day after the operation. That night, girl came to accompany boy leaving her friends behind while in the middle of their gathering. Girl promised the boy that she will be there for him the next day, and left to attend a celebration later that night. Hearing this, the boy felt a strong sense of happiness, like an orphan who finally found a home. He was awake the entire night waiting for dawn so that he could finally see her again. Finally, dawn came and a few hours later, the girl finally arrived. The boy was overjoyed but it was short-lived until the girl's phone rang. It was a guy from her old school who liked her, knowing this, out of jealousy the guy walked off leaving the girl alone. (this guys sucks.. don't ever do that!!)
A day has passed after the incident when girl finally forgave boy for his actions.
OK!! This is the part where boy and girl get attached. While boy was using girl's account and girl was using boy's account, girl felt that she is losing the undivided attention she once received from the boy. So now she tells boy "I feel that I no longer have your undivided attention". Boy was silenced, in his mind he told himself that he doesn't want her to feel this way again.(trust me, I know what he had in mind) He promised girl that he will give her his undivided attention. (big mistake, I guess?)
Now is the part where problems started appearing. Boy gave up all his friends, hobbies and many more, he practically had no life! For the first month, things went smoothly but soon enough, girl finally started hating the attention she once wanted so much. They started arguing again and again and again. Girl spends more time with her friends, cancels meeting with boy, always late for date. Eventually, they broke up. And patched back, And broke up... over and over and over again.(its best not to go into details)Well... boy waged an all-out-war against girl's friend[s](a lot of these friends are actually in love with her.. he can trust her but surely he CAN'T trust them, who can if your gf's friends say things like "I'll help you forget him"). He started disallowing girl to meet up with friends, join gatherings etc etc etc.(I forgot to mention, boy has issues with mini-skirts when it comes to THIS PARTICULAR GIRL) And there goes the never ending cycle of break up and patch up..... it led to guy hurting girl in two/three occasions? (HOLY (@*#_{@$ burn in hell fucking DUDE)PS: The boy told the girl about his lies a few months after they got together.
Now most of my readers must be pissed with the guy. NO MATTER WHAT, NEVER EVER HIT A GIRL!!!! No matter how wrong, how unreasonable, how unjust, how demanding and how selfish they can be, its our duty to forgive them.We come to love not by finding a perfect person but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.Don't love a person by her beauty, it will fade away as time pass. Love a person with a warm heart, it will never grow cold.And yes, love has its own time, season and reason You can't ask it to stay. You can only embrace it when it comes and be glad that for a moment in your life, it was yours.
Anyhow, let me simply sum up the good parts so that I can end the story...
ValentinesBoy bought girl white roses. They walked around the shopping district and later headed to a seaside concert hall where they bought a cotton-like-sweet. Unfortunately... they argued later that night over a balloon... Girl left for home after awhile, pissed at boy.
Birthday[s]Lets start with boy's birthday. This is one weird birthday for him.... the girl made boy buy lots of accessories as if it was her own birthday. Anyhow, boy doesn't really celebrate his birthday so lets skip it. Now, lets talk about girl's birthday. Basically.. they went to a restaurant. Lets just skip this too!! For those who are curios, boy and girl went to a Traditional Chinese Restaurant and a Japanese Restaurant.
Monthly Celebration[s]Zoo
The couple started their day by having their breakfast in McDonalds before heading to the Zoo. Originally, the plan was to go to the zoo and then to the night safari. It didn't go according to plan....They started from parrots, to tigers and so on. The girl asked the boy to take pictures of many animals. He also carried a goat away from the road side because the girl said that it might run to the tigers' den and get eaten............. well.. alright..? There was a pony which the girl was too afraid to get close to. That's pretty much everything. I forgot to mention, they argued earlier that day and no night safari
Botanical GardenIts a long walk from the city but I think the place is worth the walk. Anyway, the boy and girl went to this place because of one reason; to leave a mark on a tree. At the heart of the garden stands a tree less than 10-feet high. The couple wanted to write their names to have some sort memory in this place to their amusement, there is no space to write their names in the lower section of the tree. The boy then proposed that the girl sit on his shoulder so that she could reach the highest point a person could possible reach to write their names. Plenty of tourist were starring at them god knows whats on their minds. Nevertheless they continued writing their names on it. After awhile, they headed to an air-conditioned room which actually is a way of imitating the niche of actual rain forest. (this place is cool as in literally, it even has mist of water being sprayed to keep the place moist) Thankfully this day was perfect~ fantazzztic~
This relationship lasted for more than a year and after the 4th month of the 2nd year, this fragile bonding between boy and girl finally collapsed. One day girl called boy and said that she no longer wants to be with him. Since then, the two were separated. The boy was suicidal at one point. And as the time passed, the boy started to get better. His wounds not healed but is better. He started going out, meeting all friends, attending gatherings he used to hate so much. The boy tried to get his life back, he wanted to learn to live again. This relationship had a total of a couple of hundreds of break ups and patch ups. And up to this very day, he still is waiting for the girl's return.
Life can change in a heartbeat of time, a hair's-breadth of space without our consent. Treasure every moment you have, remember that time waits for no one. Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. That's why they call it present.Don't be so busy planning the life you're going to have that you fail to appreciate the one you're already been given. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry to hard.Life is full of deceptions, lies, failures and problems but underneath all of these things lies an important lesson in life... to survive.Everything in life has purpose. There are no mistakes , no coincidences. Events are given to us to learn from.Always take chance. It may not end the way we had hoped for but that's alright. At least you will never go through life wondering, "What if..." or "Only if..." Remember we only pass by things once in our life.
A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and we just have to let go.However, when you turn the pages of life, don't be afraid to look back when you have to; for there are so many beautiful memories with which you can draw your strength and inspiration from.
2:59 AM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
things I'll never regret in my life; the day we met. You gave meaning to my life, brought the light in my ever darkening world. Thank you for making me realize that it is time for me to grow up and start to think about the life I am to have in the near future.
4:54 PM
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
FIONA FUNG - Proud Of You
Love in your eyes
Sitting silent by my side
Going on, holding hands
Walking through the nights
Hold me up, hold me tight
Lift me up to touch the sky
Teaching me to love with heart
Helping me open my mind
I can fly
I'm proud that I can fly
To give the best of mine
Till the end of the time
Believe me, I can fly
I'm proud that I can fly
To give the best of mine
The heaven in the sky
Stars in the sky
Wishing once upon a time
Give me love, make me smile
Till the end of life
Hold me up, hold me tight
Lift me up to touch the sky
Teaching me to love with heart
Helping me open my mind
I can fly
I'm proud that I can fly
To give the best of mine
Till the end of the time
Believe me, I can fly
I'm proud that I can fly
To give the best of mine
The heaven in the sky
Can't you believe that you light up my way?
No matter how that ease my path, I'll never lose my faith
See me fly
I'm proud to fly up high
Show you the best of mine
Till the end of the time
Believe me, I can fly
I'm singing in the sky
Show you the best of mine
The heaven in the sky
Nothing can stop me
Spread my wings, so wide
11:24 PM
